I'd better not wearing Prada today but everybody eating tonight.

for you all little kids out there, I wish we could meet each other someday and had this laughter together all day long. Watching you all grow up, becoming great men and women on Earth!

I will do something. I DO :) SEE YOU! xoxo

source: (http://www.travelpod.com/travel-photo/stefandrach/1/1270110061/having-a-laugh-with-street-kids.jpg/tpod.html and http://www.a2magic.com/Kids-Birthdays.htm)

UDAH THA, UDAH.

finally. done.

rambling. total. ;-)

I'm trying hard to get rid of you from my life.

But you are the one I think before I sleep at night, and the first who comes out after I open my eyes in the morning.

WHO THE HELL ARE YOU

I'm not tired at all, thank God.

But I'm afraid this is not more than just an obsession.

I'm not talking about love because

because

I don't know about it so don't want to try to crap about it.

I feel it's a bliss anyway. A complete happiness.

and because I've tried but God gives no way.

AND

I don't even know whether it just takes time till I get it

OR

the other waiting.

what cracks my thoughts and hope is that I don't even see a slight possibility there so why should I stay? but I know GOD ROCKS, more than Bruno Mars does. He makes opportunity presents itself in His own way that beyond my expectation. Even brighter! Dang, so why should I worry :-)

talking to yourself is somehow healing yourself.

balada bangun pagi

Besok adalah Natal! Yang berarti rumah akan ramai dengan sanak saudara berkunjung dan berpesta sederhana. Lalu yang berarti juga hari ini adalah beres-beres untuk persiapan besok. Dan gue sudah diwanti-wanti untuk bangun pagi (yang nggak tahu jam berapa) untuk bantuin ambil peralatan di gudang. Oke gue pikir jam 7 apa setengah 8 lah ya, ternyata pagi ini dibangunin dari jam setengah 7 kurang! Terlihat lebay tapi ada sejarahnya. Dan jangan lupa bagi orang ngantuk 5 menit tambahan rasanya seperti angin surga.

Sudah kira-kira 15 tahun gue bangun jam 5 pagi, selalu setiap pagi tanpa absen sepanjang tahun (kecuali hari libur). Dan benar, itu cukup menderita karena saat langit belum cerah, bahkan mungkin ayam belum bangun gue sudah di mobil dan... melanjutkan tidur di dalamnya hingga sampai sekolah. Jadi setelah lepas dari mata sipit dan keluh kesah tiap pagi ini (baca: rutinitas pelajar Indonesia), gue SANGAT BAHAGIA. Man, di Malaysia aja masuknya jam 8 setidaknya! Bukan balapan sama matahari kayak kita. Aduh beneran deh kalo udah capek dan ngantuk, siapa yang mikir udara fresh tralala sih? Jam 6 aja udah macet gitu di perempatan Cengkareng. Oke berhenti keluh kesahnya.

Nah gue tahu sih ga bener kalo kesel mana ini kan buat persiapan Natal, jadi gue menghibur diri dengan kelopak mata atas dan bawah yang seperti tidak mau dipisahkan. Namun ya akhirnya setelah naik turun tangga (karena gudangnya di atas) yang sangat membuka mata gue adalah tangga yang curam. Berhubung peralatan yang gue bawa adalah alat pecah-belah jadi mau tidak mau gue harus MEMBUKA LEBAR MATA GUE. Dan mendadak senang aja gitu, damai. Mungkin ini hawa Natal yang mahadashyat mengalahkan berat kelopak mata gue.

Nanti malam diriku akan ke gereja jam 9 bersama Bapak-Ibu, senang sekali! Sayangnya malam ini gue jadi anak tunggal karena Mas Chandra musti tinggal di Malaysia buat magang dan Julius di rumah sepupu dan ke gereja sama keluarga sepupu gue itu. Tapi itu nggak menghalangi buat merayakan kebahagiaan Natal kan? Semoga semua bisa merasakannya dan lebih baik lagi bisa menjadi sumber kebahagiaan itu sendiri seperti Yesus!

MERRY AND HAPPY CHRISTMAS!

thanks

Again, for another English assignment.

"These lines are plopping

for this 18 years, 5 months to be exact

I haven't known how it feels to be a sun every day

and a moon every night

but I know well how it feels

radiated by warmth and light

from morn till moon, 24/7

my brain squeezing

thoughts running back and forth

recall the boldest part of us

and everything's written in bold, moreover underlined

it just needs a blink to know: ALL ARE SPECIAL.

now say am standing hundreds miles away

say am having driving license

say am sweating for my own dreams

say am partying with fellas

say am falling in love with a special guy

am still your little girl

who thank to God for sending me a saint who never shows pain under the rain

and thank to you, Mum!

thankyouthankyouthankyouthankyouthankyouthankyouthankyou, though it'll never be enough

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY, MUM!

*Living quite far away from home means away from Mom, but I can still feel her love from distance with all those attention and prayer. Celebrating Mother's Day this month (Dec, 22 and it's exactly 5 months after my birthday) inspired me to create this thankful poem for her. With no title, I hope readers could figure out the meaning of certain letter or symbol in bold and joint them all. At the end the title comes out: Happy Mother's Day, Mum!"

For this one is special for the angel of our family, Mum. ILU.

(The photo on the side is for my Mum's birthday this year:) )

#decemberwish

My wish for December is great time on Christmas:) and may everybody be blessed!

And everything's going better and greater so I can live my life to the fullest. I wanna spend my time with people I love and okay it's going random hahaha

And Eyang Putri gets better. Thanks God!

Anda

Mata Anda adalah yang terindah yang pernah saya lihat.

Oh it's supposed to be in English. Well, the thing is: I mean it.